We're Back: My Story

Ok, so idk if that was clear at all, but the title is a reference to the movie We're Back: A Dinosaur Story. It was a pretty good movie, but but the dude with the glass eye was super scary and how about that ending? Crreeeeepy!

So anyways, I know my many readers out there have been eagerly awaiting my return. I promise I didn't quite manage to die, hahaha. Maybe next time, lol. So ya, I figured it's been for freaking ever, and I may as well get back to here. Not like I have a whole bunch of news to report. But whatevs, lol. So I can't remember if I said it here or not, and I'm too lazy to go back and check, but ya me and J are no longer together, and we haven't been for a while. Ummm, what else was I going to say? I took my first 2 college classes this semester at u of c. It was okay I guess. Still not really making friends somehow, but at least now I have aruzia* around. :)

Well anyways, I guess that's about it for now. O and if ur wondering why I am typing and spelling way better, it's because I am normallya shitty speller, but I discovered that my iPhone will magically fix my capital letters and spelling and shit. So yay me, I get to have people think I'm smart finally XD! woo!

Ok I think I've done enough damage to the blogosphere for today. I'll try to update more, but be ready for a lot of shitty posts since summer looks to be boring, lol. Byes!

Love,
SS

*if u aren't Her and u haven't already, then u should totally check her blog. http://aruziamelnik.blogspot.com

guess whos back? back again?

yay!! im back! did u guys miss me? so ya, the bahamas were fucking awesome!! i dont have most of the pics from the trip, but i have a few that im putting in a new album right after i post this. oooh! n i died my hair too! yay, im blonde! so ya the trip was great, and me and my dad had a lot of fun. mostly we just hung out on the beach, but it was kinda cloudy most of the time. but thats cool, when it rained we just hung out in the villa thing daddy got for us. actually, we kinda had more fun inside then on the beach. i mean the beach was great and there were a lot of hott guys, but me and my dad had a lot of fun staying in too. they had a really cool bar there and we got all kinds of fun drinks. and my dad showed me how to cook some different stuff and we watched movies and did all kinds of other stuff too. yay! i didt really get tan tho...still really pale, lol! neways, thats probably all i got for now...i might add some more old pics to my album, but no promises...me and my dad are still kinda exhausted after the trip! peace out guys XD!

OMG IM DONE!

wooo!!!!!! im fucking done with high school! wow it feels fucking amazing 2 be done. i mean i dont feel way smarter or special or anything, but it still feels good 2 not have to go back in the spring, lol! im not 2 sure what im going 2 do now tho...ive got like 9 months to kill before i go to college. im not too sure where i want to go to school yet, but i guess we'll see where i get in, lol. maybe i wont have many choices :P. maybe ill get stuck in ucla where a bunch of friends are going (well, ppl i knew in HS in cali). wont that be fun? but hey i made a new friend who goes there! shes a third year, and i think some of u may know her ;)....actually 1 of u is her........shell be a senior though, so idk if ill even meet up with her. but im kinda hoping to go someplace besides cali. my dad went to school at UT austin, so i applied there, but i also applied to a couple other big12 schools since they give u scholarships if your from a big12 state. obviously im not super sweet on going to UTA or any of those schools...i mean i love my dad, but not so much with texas XD! i really want to go to either tulane or emory. those are pretty tough schools, but their supposed to be pretty good. i dont think im going to get in, but i also applied to uc berkeley and princeton, just in case. i think if i tell berkeley that the last place i lived 6 months was cali, theyll be okay with it. anyways, idk why im talking about school as soon as i finished, lol!

so yea my friend aruzia is pretty cool...i told u about her blog a while ago, and its pretty awesome. but she hasnt posted for a while, so if anyone reads this and ur not actually aruzia, u should go check out her blog and tell her to get posting again XD!

o so i cant believe i waited till now to say this, but i guess i was just super excited about the other stuff, lol...im going to the bahamas XD!!!! my daddy's taking me just the 2 of us and we r going to basically just get this nice place there for a week and relax there. im so excited!!! we're flying out on the day after xmas so we get to be there for new years too! its b/c i graduated, but i think its also kinda that he wants 2 do something special with just me since i just broke up with J. i kinda told him about it b/c he noticed i was sorta distracted. he was really nice about it, and hes been doing all kinds of special and nice things for me recently. im pretty lucky to have him around :). and to have all u wonderful fans obviously :P! all 2 of u, lol. u rock! and im excited! and im a little tipsy b/c my dad and i had about half a bottle of wine with dinner! yay XD! rawr! bye!!

back to the past

ok, so i lied. i have news. well, i didnt have news when i made my last post, but now there is. so J and i broke up. i feel like i should be way sadder, since hes a really good guy, but i guess thats kinda the way it goes... part of it was that he was getting worried that some1 would find out about us (like some1 at school) and that he would be in a shitload of trouble. i mean age of consent is 16 so thats not a problem, but since hes a teacher, they probably wouldnt like it. but part of it was because of me 2...lots of times i didnt think that J was quite good enough, but idk if i really gace J a fair enough chance...i think a part of me was always comparing him to my dad, and i think taht thats kinda an unfair standard.

i wonder if thats something that everyone has to deal with in relationships? like if whenever u find a new person to be with, if u can ever really stop urself from comparing them to your past relationships. and i guess when theres still a part of u that wants 2 go back, its probably not fair to the new person. but like, how else do u move on if ur not going back out and looking for new people? but i guess if u keep going back 2 the same person after each new person, ur not really moving on, huh? idk if im really making sense. i havent been getting enough sleep because im up late studying, and finishing up college aps and shit. cant wait 2 be done with all this shit.

anyways, let me know what u think? any advice, suggestions, or anything. or even just random thoughts about the meaning of life, lol! i guess theres more than one person reading my blog now since 3 people voted in my poll. :) hey everyone! i promise im not always lame! keep coming back, and ill have new stuff XD!

bye!

It's Been A While

hey there 2 everyONE who reads my blog lol! i guess its been a while since i was on here last. thats kinda how most things go for me tho...get started, go for a while, and then forget about it......except this time i dindt actually forget, i just got busy with school stuff. but hey, only 2 weeks til i graduate!! XD cant wait to get the fuck out of this school, lol. i kno ive been bitching a lot about school and how i dont have any friends here, but its totally true. but its okay, because im almost done with those asswipes XD!

anyways, so i guess theres not much news 2 rreport, but in a couple weeks there should be! peace out! XD

a lighter mood

ya, so it's thankgiving now, woo! honestly im not that stoked, but it's nice to get time off of school. i know its just high school, and its not supposed to be a big deal, but it really sucks a lot to suddenly have no friends. but anyways, i said this was going 2 be a lighter post then my last few ones were. so ya, the good news is me and J have a sorta system working out now. i decided 2 tell him that i was looking for something less serious then he was, and he was totally cool with it. he said that he just likes to think about future stuff even if hes not ready for it yet. apparently i was just being psyco paranoia girl, lol....if u ask some people thats me a lot, but idk. i mean, ive had a couple open relationships b4, and it mostly worked fine. well i mean, obviously we broke up eventually, but thatwas just cuz we didnt get along anymore. the open stuff was fine. i guess i wouldn't reccomend it, since it can be really hard sometimes, but it worked anyways for me. but ya, me and J are totally doing good now. we can get together most nights for a bit, and we have time on the weekend too.

but ya, so ive got one other problem tho...J kinda wants me to tell my dad about us, and i kinda do too, but theres really no good way to bring it up, lol. i can't be all "o hey daddy, so ive been fucking this 33yo guy for a couple months now. o ya, and hes a teacher at my school. but dont worry, daddy! hes not my teacher anymore since i switched classes. o and thats why u had to sign that form for me to switch." not really sure what 2 do about it though. i mean, obviously if it does get serious, i have 2 tell him eventually. and if i wait its going to get worse. idk...maybe i'll spike his drinks at thanksgiving and tell him then, lol! XD that should work.

new day, new people?

okay, so i know ive been down a lot recently, and ive been taking it out on my family a lot. and i promised myself that if i got a blog, i wouldnt be all like emo and shit and just whining all the time but ya, it's kinda not fun to move out to the middle of nowehere in colorado. we're not even near denver or something. it's pretty lame. and i already bitched about the people. trust me, im not usually this boring and serious, lol. it just sucks when u don't have friends to go out with. or talk to long distance. yea, no one from where i was b4 has called me even once since i left. i got a couple texts, and thats it. and i mean, its not like im not TRYING to make friends. i even randomly emailed people i thought were cool, but apparently people dont actually like me that much, lol. idk why people acted like they did b4. maybe im just scary...yay?