a lighter mood

ya, so it's thankgiving now, woo! honestly im not that stoked, but it's nice to get time off of school. i know its just high school, and its not supposed to be a big deal, but it really sucks a lot to suddenly have no friends. but anyways, i said this was going 2 be a lighter post then my last few ones were. so ya, the good news is me and J have a sorta system working out now. i decided 2 tell him that i was looking for something less serious then he was, and he was totally cool with it. he said that he just likes to think about future stuff even if hes not ready for it yet. apparently i was just being psyco paranoia girl, lol....if u ask some people thats me a lot, but idk. i mean, ive had a couple open relationships b4, and it mostly worked fine. well i mean, obviously we broke up eventually, but thatwas just cuz we didnt get along anymore. the open stuff was fine. i guess i wouldn't reccomend it, since it can be really hard sometimes, but it worked anyways for me. but ya, me and J are totally doing good now. we can get together most nights for a bit, and we have time on the weekend too.

but ya, so ive got one other problem tho...J kinda wants me to tell my dad about us, and i kinda do too, but theres really no good way to bring it up, lol. i can't be all "o hey daddy, so ive been fucking this 33yo guy for a couple months now. o ya, and hes a teacher at my school. but dont worry, daddy! hes not my teacher anymore since i switched classes. o and thats why u had to sign that form for me to switch." not really sure what 2 do about it though. i mean, obviously if it does get serious, i have 2 tell him eventually. and if i wait its going to get worse. idk...maybe i'll spike his drinks at thanksgiving and tell him then, lol! XD that should work.