a lighter mood

ya, so it's thankgiving now, woo! honestly im not that stoked, but it's nice to get time off of school. i know its just high school, and its not supposed to be a big deal, but it really sucks a lot to suddenly have no friends. but anyways, i said this was going 2 be a lighter post then my last few ones were. so ya, the good news is me and J have a sorta system working out now. i decided 2 tell him that i was looking for something less serious then he was, and he was totally cool with it. he said that he just likes to think about future stuff even if hes not ready for it yet. apparently i was just being psyco paranoia girl, lol....if u ask some people thats me a lot, but idk. i mean, ive had a couple open relationships b4, and it mostly worked fine. well i mean, obviously we broke up eventually, but thatwas just cuz we didnt get along anymore. the open stuff was fine. i guess i wouldn't reccomend it, since it can be really hard sometimes, but it worked anyways for me. but ya, me and J are totally doing good now. we can get together most nights for a bit, and we have time on the weekend too.

but ya, so ive got one other problem tho...J kinda wants me to tell my dad about us, and i kinda do too, but theres really no good way to bring it up, lol. i can't be all "o hey daddy, so ive been fucking this 33yo guy for a couple months now. o ya, and hes a teacher at my school. but dont worry, daddy! hes not my teacher anymore since i switched classes. o and thats why u had to sign that form for me to switch." not really sure what 2 do about it though. i mean, obviously if it does get serious, i have 2 tell him eventually. and if i wait its going to get worse. idk...maybe i'll spike his drinks at thanksgiving and tell him then, lol! XD that should work.

new day, new people?

okay, so i know ive been down a lot recently, and ive been taking it out on my family a lot. and i promised myself that if i got a blog, i wouldnt be all like emo and shit and just whining all the time but ya, it's kinda not fun to move out to the middle of nowehere in colorado. we're not even near denver or something. it's pretty lame. and i already bitched about the people. trust me, im not usually this boring and serious, lol. it just sucks when u don't have friends to go out with. or talk to long distance. yea, no one from where i was b4 has called me even once since i left. i got a couple texts, and thats it. and i mean, its not like im not TRYING to make friends. i even randomly emailed people i thought were cool, but apparently people dont actually like me that much, lol. idk why people acted like they did b4. maybe im just scary...yay?

bored....

yea, im soo boooored....i don't have anything to do, and so here i am. awesome! does anyone actually read my blog at all?

what? 3 in 3 days? score!

yea, im totally blogging again. idk why...i guess i have nothing better to do with my time. i think aruzia's right...blogging is a great way to distract yourself from stuff, lol. doesnt matter what it is if it's school, work, bf/gf, other friends, even if u don't have any real ones. :P

hey, i found a new theme...friends u thought u had. so when we were out in cal, i had lots of friends...i mean i was popular. i guess they weren't really close, but i had a bunch of people wit me. but here, it kinda sucks a lot. i mean people are way nicer here, but no one wants to be friends. i think its b/c i'm sorta a typical valley girl or that's how i cum across, but every1s just kinda like distant from me. and that's how come i have time 2 blog every day. but hey, it's all good. i get to graduate at semester and i can do something fun after that. im only here for like a month more. yay freedom XD!

okay im done being serious for now. bibi every1!

Something Real

ok, so i said i might write sumthing real sometime, so here goes. so i've been seeing this guy for a while now, and it's been getting kinda serious (like more serious than i'm really up for...i mean, i'm only 17, lol). so this guy, i should prly tell u guys about him. for one thing, he's older. like a lot. like almost twice my age older. which is cool with me. i like older guys as a general rule. hes' definitely older than most guys i've gone out with though. before him the oldest guy was only 5 yrs older then me. but yea, this guy (J) is really great and stuff, but he wants to get serious. i mean not physically, like emotions and stuff. i like the physical stuff. i mean he's fricking great in bed. and i like him, but he said he loves me and idk if i can really say it back. what should i do?

i can haz followurz?

hey all you sexy happy people! im pretty excited b/c i have a new online friend! squee! you should check out aruzia's blog, it's frickin awesome. she's a fun writer and she actually has real posts (unlike me so far). umm, idk if any1 else actually reads this besides her though. but ya, if ur kinda cool, u should read it. and of course ur cool b/c ur here on my blog! XD

yay, im funny. okay, next time i'll write something real and substantial and deep. promise.

kinda. 

let me know if u want to hear about me or if u just want to hear me ramble about shit, lol! it's all for the fans! ;)

YAY F1RST P0ST!!1?

ya, i got nothing... i have no reason to have a blog yet, but i figure why not. XD umm...my name's not Serena Sehkzy, but i kinda wish it was. i used to live in LA, but now i live in colorado. (or do i? hehehe) so ya, i guess i'll post sumthing when i have something to say. woo.